What Happen?

Life Happen.

: )

Afraid.

At this moment,

I am afraid of what's gonna happen.

...

But its all for the best.

Pauses.

“We're so busy watching out for what's just ahead of us

that we don't take time to enjoy where we are.”

Smile.

“You haven't lost your smile at all, it's right under your nose.

You just forgot it was there.”

Makes me smile : )

Answer please.

What am I expecting in life?

..

a miracle?

Coincidently

I found a quote

by Albert Einstein

...

"There are only two ways to live your life.

One is as though nothing is a miracle.

The other is as though everything is a miracle."

I have been seeking for the miracle that would finally happen in my life

Which will give me the valid reason

to be happy

to be joyful

to live

...

The answer is miracle has always been around me.

My beloved God,

My family,

My friend,

and

My love

...

I was blinded

by my narrow mind.

Now

I finally sees it

and

may I always will.

...

Home.

Just came back from Ping's House

and

....

Today,

After

being cranky

being lost

for all this while

I realised

what I have been searching for lately

....

Wasn't about searching for a different kind of food

nor finding ways to kill times

or getting rid of the routine lifestyle

...

It was searching for the feeling of being at Home,

the feeling that everything has been taken care of,

....

the feeling of being with family.

Something

that I never thought would be

what I am seeking for

...

Well

...

Before I left,

I hoped that I will be able to stay overnight

Why?

Because Ping's place reminds me of a place I call Home

Somewhere I haven been to for a long time

Wishing to feel peaceful again.

Well

Here I am, : )

Back to my so called 'second home'

Back to the cold and empty room

Figuring out the schedule for tomorrow

...

preparing for the coming exam

...

Haiz

I really do miss my family

:' )

I'm still here.

I am a question to the world,

Not an answer to be heard.

All a moment that's held in your arms.

And what do you think you'd ever say?

I won't listen anyway…

You don't know me,

And I’ll never be what you want me to be.

...

And what do you think you'd understand?

I'm a boy, no, I'm a man..

You can take me and throw me away.

And how can you learn what's never shown?

Yeah, you stand here on your own.

They don't know me 'cause I'm not here.

And I want a moment to be real,

Wanna touch things I don't feel,

Wanna hold on and feel I belong.

And how can the world want me to change,

They’re the ones that stay the same.

The don’t know me,

'Cause I’m not here.

And you see the things they never see

All you wanted, I could be

Now you know me, and I'm not afraid

And I wanna tell you who I am

Can you help me be a man?

They can't break me

As long as I know who I am

And I want a moment to be real,

Wanna touch things I don't feel,

Wanna hold on and feel I belong.

And how can the world want me to change,

They’re the ones that stay the same.

They can’t see me,

But I’m still here.

They can’t tell me who to be,

‘Cause I’m not what they see.

And the world is still sleepin’,

While I keep on dreamin’ for me.

And their words are just whispers

And lies that I’ll never believe.

And I want a moment to be real,

Wanna touch things I don't feel,

Wanna hold on and feel I belong.

And how can they say I never change

They’re the ones that stay the same.

I’m the one now,

‘Cause I’m still here.

I’m the one,

‘Cause I’m still here.

I’m still here.

I’m still here.

I’m still here.

Wish.

To my beloved

....

The Brightest light on the Darkest Night

...

A meaningful line from Babel

:)

When your tired and are about to give up, have a look at this.

Today

By chance I found part of this in Facebook

And it is really meaningful.

So I decided to collect the whole piece and post it here

Alright

With the help of my friend we tried to translate it into English.

This is dedicated to those who need a little drive in their life

: )

In our life

we all carry a heavy cross upon our backs, heading towards our final destination.

In the middle of the journey, a man pauses.

He thought to himself: This cross is much too heavy-- It's going to take me forever to reach my destination at this rate.

So, he produced a knife and made the decision to cut bits of the cross off. After doing so, the cross did indeed become easier to carry

The man continued his journey, but before very long, he thought to himself once more: Even though I've cut off pieces off this cross, it's still much too heavy.

Thus, for the sake of an easier journey, he proceeds to take larger chunks off of the cross.

With the cross shortened and made even lighter, the man managed to make it to the front of the group without much effort, strolling leisurely on his journey. Everyone was aggravated by the sight; they were all suffering, burdened by their crosses, but the man could enjoy his journey, even happily humming a few tunes.

Along their journey, they were halted by a large crack in the earth; a huge chasm reaching deep into the darkness of the earth. The chasm did not have a bridge, and there was no possible way to go around it.

The people whom he had passed earlier were catching up. They effortlessly used the crosses they carried as bridges, traversing the chasm easily and returned to their journey, heading towards their destination. The man wanted to do the same, but at that moment realized that because he had chopped off chunks off of the cross, it was too short to act as a bridge. The man was stuck at the other side

of the chasm, sobbing in regret for what he had done.

At that moment, the only thought that reminisce in his mind was: “Our greatest regret in life was none but taking things for granted.”

其实，我们每个人每一天都背负着各种各样的十字架，在艰难前行。

它也许是我们的学习，也许是我们的工作，也许是我们的情感，也许是我们必须承担的责任和义务。

但是，正是这些责任和义务，构成了我们在这个世界上存在着的理由和价值。

所以，请不要埋怨学习的繁重，工作的劳苦，责任的重大，因为真正的快乐，是挑战后的结果，没有经历深刻的痛苦，我们也就体会不到酣畅淋漓的快乐！

有些黑暗，只能自己穿越；

有些痛苦，只能自己体验；

有些孤独，也只能自己品尝。

但是，穿过黑暗，我们一定能感受到阳光的温度；

走出痛苦，我们一定能企及成长的高度；

告别孤独，我们也一定能收获灵魂的深度！

finally.

At this moment

...

I finally understood why

they say the greatest thing in life was to love

and to be love in return

...

Happy Mother's Day.

Wee~

We have reached the day of the year

when we give our thanks to our Mother for their Love and Caring.

: )

a.k.a

....

Mommy

....

Momma

...

Mother

...

Mi

...

Ma

...

A Bu

...

Lo Ma Chi

...

...However you called Her ;)

....

anyway, wherever you are.

Give them a Call, a message, a flower, a hug or a kiss

and take a good look at them

See How they much they have sacrifice for you.

to sum it up

Happy Mother's Day to all mother's in the world.

To My Mom,

thanks for your love and your caring.

Even though I may not be able to be there to spend the day with you.

I want you to know that

I love you : )

Memory.

Few days ago.

(@_@)

I saw this in FB

and

I found it really true,

so, I decided to post it here: )

...

yea..

this

brings back memory

....

有没有发现我不再打电话给你

有没有发现我不再发信息给你……

有没有发现当你MSN在线，我不再会打扰你，而且偶尔恶

做剧的故意弹你视频……

这些都没有了吧，但并不代表我不爱你了，只是因为我发现

了一件事，“你根本不需要我了！”

但你没说,所以我每天都做了很多傻事……

拿起手机,翻出你的手机号，看了很久，苦笑……又把手机

按回原点，我想打给你，却怕你又说出:“我现在很忙,等

下打给你噢”之后传来 “嘟嘟...”的声音.你不知道，电话这头的我有多失望

....

你说的等下，让我一直等。等到我都忘了你有多久没打电话

来。大概半年了吧！

～

手机里总是储存着写好的信息，但一直没发出去，因为你不

会回……但我却总会等你回！所以，便干脆不发，发了只会

是在自己的伤口上撒盐……

几乎天天挂着电脑，希望能遇见你，看到你闪亮的头象，偶

尔看见了，心里莫明的激动，但你却极少和我说话。我忍不

住，主动发过去，却没有回音，有时只是一句“我去玩游戏

了”或者“刚在玩游戏没看到”……便再也没有回了……

我开始知道，你变了……虽然你不说，虽然你还说喜欢我。

！你一次一次让我心寒。我坚持这么久，每天不断欺骗自己

：你是爱我的，我多想了……（至少你会接电话，至少……

在MSN上你会回一两句话……至少……）

我～微笑着掩饰心里的痛

你～微笑着蒙住我的双眼 把我丢弃

孤独背后的心痛,或许你从不曾看到……

...yea, just not meant to be.

A little update.

At the blink of an eye

Its already been 3 months

Since my uni life started

so much had happen

at the same time

nothing much had happen.

ironically.

I met so many new people

including 'Shark'

and now we are together : )

(love you, Shark)

Uni is really so much different from College life.

So much different from what I thought it would be.

Always thought that Uni is about going to school for 2 days

and the rest of the weeks will just be pure freedom : )

Well, life sucks. but it still goes on.

These few months,

Had been like......

really 'Busy' due to large amount of assignment

and 'lepak' for about half year after college doesn't really help >.>

After all, I am getting used to it.

In fact, I decide to work even harder now.

yea...

The Stress. right.

its crazy, especially the accounting assignment.

Woo...I was almost gonna break down,

and Shark decides to ditch me for a while after that

...really doesn't help.

Well, looking back on the pass few months

its just amazing.

though nothing much had happen,

and some amazing and memorable things did happen.

now

I am almost at the end of my semester : )

and ..the Final Exam awaits. dam.

Wish me luck.

*high five*

illusion.

It was a while ago,

I remember

it was 3 am

and

I was pulling an all night-ter

for my assignment

my friend

happened to

showed me this video

: )

really,

this is

just

simply amazing

The song

just made me paused

what I am doing atm

and start thinking

about

what have I been doing?

what have we been doing?

love the lyrics

...

"The World is Just Illusion Always Wanting to Change You"

... enjoy...

=)

a thought.

Ever wondered

about the question

...

"What would the world around me be like if I didn't exist?"

...

a thought

that happened to be on my mind

...

It really is a scary thought

: I

...

First post.

Finally I decided to make a blog.

For the 5th time supposedly

...

anyway

Its 2 in the morning.

Suppose to be pulling an all nighters for the assignment

But

loads of thoughts keep distracting me from it

plus

fatigue - ness

its acting on me

guess

its

procrastination

ftw.

....

Good Morning

world

....

: )